Trying to put you out of my mind

My OCD consists of counting things. I count all kinds of things. Mostly words, letters, numbers, and their empty spaces. Then I go as far as to find a way to make that number that I come up with be one of the numbers I really like. I understand that this is taking things pretty fast so I'll try to slow down. Anyway, I obsess over these things and believe that if I don't do these things bad things will happen to me or my family. It sounds crazy, mostly because it is crazy. I hate that it sounds crazy. I know how crazy it seems too. But it's me and that's it. I can't do anything about it and I can't fix it o change it, so I just deal with it.